过了那么多天，那么多年，现在回头看看，说真的，还是幼儿园小学中学的朋友比较好。
这段时间，我真的有很多话很想说，可是facebook不再是一个人的页面了，也没有必要再上传任何的境况。然后回到现实生活，也不能完全地诠释出来。一言难尽啊。有时来到blog，也懒惰大字，曾想用soundcloud录几句想说的话，又怪怪，哈哈，说得有点乱。
这篇纯粹想抒发情绪。
幼儿园啊，小学啊，中学啊，认识的人比较好，或许是因为一起经历的东西比较多，然后久久来个gathering。愚蠢的自己曾经想过啊，应该谁也记不得谁了。其实都没有，还比近期认识的人好几倍。
损友啊~ 多的是~ 可惜的就是无能的自己会受他人影响，与他人做了经历了某些事，然后此事就变成了一个离不开的话题，一个紧握的把柄，捆绑着。不管我几努力摆脱那个话题，那些人还是一样。唉，感叹。交不交损友没关系，关系是你能不能坚决地了解自己的方向？
this one i use english write i think is a lot easier, i lazy type pinyin. just want to 放肆 myself using some 'words' as i dont usually use but this time i really beh tahan. i really really really sad n dulan. remembering the first day i reached uni and i met a guy, we then became best friends who understand each other, when you put a lot effort on some people/friend, then almost ignore those who are really good to you, and at the end of the day, they left, leave never mind, but without any information which is the most frustrating moment. at some point in this journey, i really think that friends are fake, we dont need friends in life, all are bullshits. ok, then realized its something that we need to go through, is ok. 说起来还真惭愧，那些你把他们当朋友但是并不是最好的，竟然会比那些很好很好的朋友好更多，他们对你不离不弃。至今我真的，领悟了某些道理，还记得我的朋友我真的会好好照顾，不是说什么，可是就对等吧，我不知道怎么说。then the ex-best friend, i quite speechless sia, but forget it. if im going to say it realistically, then i should say, i dont gv him any benefit, neither is he. so, no point staying there keep begging a friend to talk to you. that's fine. forget it. i've done what a friend should do. ok next, you always think that this guy is really potential, and you try to be very honorable or helpful then introduce this folk to someone else as you hope he deserve any chances as you have, then you never know this people will stab you from behind, he might think that its not a big matter but it is damn hurt. Most of the time, I'm not really being myself, other than the time when im with old friends (kindergarten/primary/secondary school). Then, if they see i being fooled,, they happy, they laughed, ok la understood, i will just keep being fooled. but human is very suay de lo, they will keep flame you without limit because you ok with that ma, is my own problem then. I really dont know la, at some point i really beh tahan and really rage dy. U see me always talk to people macam good to solve people's problem, give them advices, but sometime i really wish i could have someone that i can really talk to. Then, in reality, aint nobody got that fo dat. sometimes i really wish i could be mean, at least mean a bit than usual. We're stupid, we allow other people to bully us. lol. joke. then, people are suay, really suay. i regret. i really regret to know these few people. but all these has passed. referring to a status that i updated recently in facebook, is somehow related to friendships and the things we've gone through. 我已经对这4年来认识的某些朋友死心了 aiya, jiu shi very dulan lo. the challenging part is that you need to keep endure endure and endure, we reap what we sow. It's their mouth their hand, i cant change them, cant control them, is ok, just control ourselves not to do it anymore. NO. NEVER! NO MORE! I WONT DO ALL THESE THINGS ANYMORE! trust me, after those people read this post (if they read), they will ddly agn. xi guan jiu hao.. sometimes i really dulan until the bad side of me come out, then tell myself, yes, i have no credits to fight with them now, so one day i will make them regret... Luckily, with Him in me, i'm able to calm myself not to deal with them the same way they did if not i will be same as them. they think is fun, to do it, ok, continue ba u guys, i have no enough time for myself so why care of you. ah, feel better vomit all these words out. dont do wrong things, the trace is always there, people will dig it out no matter how old you are, this is what i regret. but is ok, i not scare of it. everyone has a passed, I have repent. and will never do it again. Regret is a big shit. dont do something you will regret.
Rage post done, now the happy part. So happy to have gathering with highschool friends again, is good to see everyone become lengzai lenglui then all very good in their studies. after all these disturbance, i would rather spend my time even more on old friends than those folks. new people. some new people. really enjoyed spending time at friend's bday party then he helped me gone through some questions which i wondered for quite some time and gathered with form 5 same class de friends, long time no laugh dao stomachache and speak loudly till almost no voice haha. looking forward for more old friends gathering.
选择朋友重要，选择走的路更重要
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