Life isn't
miserable.
It is just full of failure.
I went through quite a lot of obstacles and this will not harm my life.
It isn't sad, it isn't despair, it isn't....
Life..
Is more important than love.
Yes, no love leads to a dull life; But, no life leads to nothing.
It's my life.
I will make my life full of colors.
It may be hurt for several persons, it may sounds hurt, it may be a disastrous news, it may be the end of the world.
It isn't hurt.
It is just .... devastating
Hmm...
It will not be the end of my world but is just an tiny obstacle of my life.
Readers, you may think I'm crazy
since
The previous post is about love with tone of happiness and this is something happened after that.
Haha
I slept for 2 hours in 2 days.
Monday, May 07, 2012
It is 0236 now. Something happened within 1/2 day.
I smiled with the companion of rain drops.
Each rain drops is just like the shattered pieces of heart.
I love rain. Rain drops are like every pieces of my expressions. Reflections.
I'm not dumb, I'm not numb, I'm just plump.
I'm going to express my anguish and my heartache.
Seriously, I'm not going to wait someone to say something inspirational and comforting to nurse my grieving heart.
I have hands, they're the helping hands. I'm going to inspire and comfort myself.
Perhaps I've been hesitating for some time already, and what I brainstormed now might give me the courage to carry out whatever decision my heart is telling. It may help to rebuild my confidence in love.
"Some of us think holding on makes us strong; but sometimes it is letting go." - Hermann Hesse
It's amazing how someone can break our heart and we can still love them with all the little pieces.
We can close our eyes to things we don't want to see, we can't close our heart to things we don't want to feel.
We love water when a tear drop is insignificant in a pool of water.
But it can touch the soul as it runs down someone's face.
Yes, I'm slightly hurt. This is why I love to dream. I can do what I want , be what I used to be. I can pretend, I can cry, I can do everything impossibly possible or possibly impossible, there's no limit, it's freedom.
She's now live in my dream. We'll met whenever I slept. She's now living in my yesteryears but not in my future. I knew, there's no gene or DNA replication for another girl with a same look or same attitude like her, if it's one of the tasks that impossibly possible, she'll not be the chosen one. I could fill a thousand pages telling you how I felt and still you would understand. So now I leave you without a sound, except the rain drops.
Life, must have differences. I knew, I'm worth to get someone or something beyond myself expectations and imaginations.
I wish I had the guts to walk away and forget about what we had, although they aren't much
But I can't because I know you won't come after me and that's what hurts the most :)
A million words would not bring you back, I know because I tried before, neither would a million tears, I know because I cried too.
What am I doing? I'm just expressing my expressions although there's neither start nor end between us.
Or may be it is a natural evolution when we're trying to figure out what we
want in life.
When I see you smile and know that it is not for me, that is when I will miss you the most.
Sometimes I wish I was a little kid again, at least skinned knees are easier to fix than broken hearts.
In the course of my life I came across many people. I remember some
and forget the others. However, I'll never forget the people who break my
heart. It takes a lot of effort to pick up the shattered pieces and I'd success since I suffered heartbreaks several times. It will not take to long for me to re-inspired again.
My mood should be nice now since I've expressed my inner feelings. I believed somewhere there's someone who dreams of my smile, and finds in my
presence that life is worth while. So when I'm lonely remember it's
true. There will be somebody somewhere is thinking of me.
Thank you for letting me know before it's too late. I'm just near the cliff. Haha.
Love, certain people achieve it. Certain don't. But me unlucky boy, God haven't give me a chance to show my love to the person who love more than herself. How devastating it is. For the couple out there, both of you are lucky because you have chances to love someone that love you a lot.
Don't miss that chance because love is always true. But the way we are is most important.
( These are the things I hope the one that live in my future would know )
Never Say" I love you "if you don't really care,
Never talk about feeling if they aren't really there.
Never hold my hand if you're going to break my heart.
Never say you're to, if you never plan to start.
Never look into my eyes if all you do is lie.
Never say hello, if you really mean goodbye.
If you really mean forever, then say you will try.
Never say forever ' cause forever makes me cry.
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It's time for me for the next round of the above.
Huhu, thank you for making me having such thoughts. I've grown once more. Thanks :)
Hey girl, I like you. Will you by my best friend ? :)
Friendship will keep us together since love tear us apart.
There will be sadness and sorrows among the joys. I accept it and is time to moving on. For the next obstacle of love in my life. I knew, it will be :) when the :( ends....
It's time for sleep
:P Good night
:)
Remark : Oh ya, she just engaged to someone in
Facebook, where she's is now officially in a relationship with someone else.
Hehe , congratulations and good luck
^_^
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